Yesterday

Yesterday was good, but I think I may have done something wrong at work, and will get written up for it.

It’s weighing on me now, I’ll have to go in and see what everyone else says.

Workout was good, it will be a rest day today. I’m getting sick of green beans, but found that broccoli is surprisingly good. Going to play with the dog before work today.

 

 

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Today

Today has been strange. My ex texts me since she hasn’t heard from me in a while, but I thought that was part of the breakup? Well she came over to see the dog while I was at work which I said was fine, and she ended up doing my dishes which was nice. But it still doesn’t mean I understand any of it.

Work was stressful. I’m also considering seeing someone about my depression, but somewhat scared since I don’t know where to go or if it will help. I’m still getting upset and angry, which I want to start to eliminate.

But a workout tomorrow, Asylum v 2 championship, it will be tough, but I’ll get through it.

Still depressed

I’m still depressed. It’s hard to hide it from others. It’s affecting me at work, and at home. I feel like I don’t deserve my dog, or the things I have. I want to move on, but it’s hard as hell too. I know it will get better, but right now, its sorrow.

The workouts are going well, took a small break but got back into it today and it felt great. Looking forward to tomorrow.

 

Hope you all are doing great.

Well, It’s Been a While

So I’m here again, I guess it’s good for me to try and put things down.

So my girlfriend and I broke up in early July, two years into the relationship. I’ve been pretty anti social since then. I still have this town home that I don’t want and have to pay for, I got a puppy who keeps me active throughout the last few months.

There has been a lot of frustration, anger and depression. I took a week off from work which helped greatly with these feelings. I’ve been on three dates this past week, though none have actually been amazing, or had that spark, but I think that’s completely fine.

I started Insanity Asylum Volume 2 last month and I feel phenomenal. With the diet I’ve kept myself too, at least for the majority of it, I’ve gotten amazing results. I have abs now! But, It’s onto another month of Vol. 2 of the Asylum, and I can’t wait to see what it will bring to me. I still deal with depression and sadness over the breakup, it sucks not having someone there you spent two years with all of a sudden, but as long as I keep moving forward, time will help with this.

I hope everyone has been well.

Depression

Today is a tough day. The girlfriend and I are not getting a long at all. We havn’t spoken to each other in about two days. She’s cheated on me before, and it still gets to me. I called her out on it again, how I’m still affected by it and she got pretty angry. We might break up soon. We were supposed to go to New York, and Niagara falls in a week, I don’t know if that is happening now. As for the work outs, I kinda put it on hold for the time being. Just not feeling up to it.

Have a good day